This is the worst day... out of the blue my beautiful sweet girl Luna is gone to the Rainbow Bridge. My heart is breaking and heavy with regrets. The day started like any weekend. Got up, made breakfast and went to go start laundry. While putting all the laundry in my basket I saw a plastic bag on the floor... a bag that had headache pills in it I was going to take to work. I never dreamed my cat would touch this bag (it was in the laundry basket because I was going to put the bag into my work bag after emptying the laundry into the washer).
She was always so picky with eating any food or treats and this resembled nothing good to eat. She must have been frisky and played with the bag, biting holes in it. One of the pills was broken in the bag (capsule) she ingested the contents from biting the bag. We immediately looked online and found this medication is extremely toxic to cats. We took her and Zulu into the vet because we weren't sure which cat may have bit on the bag at this time. They tried making them barf with peroxide but they wouldn't. They decided to put them under and pumped both their stomachs just to be safe.
Luna had the procedure first. She was coming awake when we were leaving because they said they would monitor them both over night and we could get them tomorrow. Two hours after being home, they called us. Luna took a turn for the worse and was on life support. The vet said it just suddenly hit her system and she started shutting down. She ensured me she was in no pain and was unconscious. Even small doses of Acetaminophen in cats is extremely lethal.... I never knew... I never thought she'd even find the bag burried in my laundry.... it's my fault my sweet girl is gone no matter what anyone says I'll always have this feeling in the back of my head....
Maybe 20 minutes later they called again. She was gone. Gone forever. We went to see her, give her one last kiss on the head... one last time to pet her. It hurts so bad; I see her everywhere I look around the house now. I picture her trotting past me. Meowing... jumping up on the cat tree to see the birds outside. Rolling around upside down so I can pet her belly. She was just on my lap last night... she was just here. I can't believe she's gone.... gone to the Rainbow Bridge ... together with her sister Keiko.
Zulu pulled through with no complications so far, they are going to call in the morning when we can get him. My poor man cat.... he's going to miss Luna as much as we will.
I'm so sorry Luna, my baby girl... I love you so much... and miss you more than anything.
We are so very sorry to hear this awful news. We send you our comforting purrs and condolences.
ReplyDeleteOmc we are stunned beyond mention. We are so sorry but we know she was met at the bridge by her sisfur.
ReplyDeleteWe are so so so so sad and will miss Luna very much, she is always in your heart and we are sending many hugs to you AND Zulu!!! I am stunned and hope to talk to you soon on FB, hang in there and know that Luna had the best mawm ever!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Shelly ... it just hurt so bad. Worse then when Keiko left us from her heart condition. That couldn't be prevented but this could have. I'm trying to forgive myself but it will just take a long time I can feel it. Thanks for the FB chat, its good to vent ::HUGS::
DeleteAnytime my friend, it IS harder to lose your furbaby suddenly & unexpectedly...you always want just a little more time w/them. You vent all you want and know all your AND Luna's furiends will always lend an ear and a hug! I cried again when I told my b/f, he too sends you sympathy...we made sure we were extra loving tonite w/Maizee & Murfee (in honor of Luna). Never forget that kittehs are just angels without wings, on earth and in heaven. <3
DeleteThis is such a terrible shock; we're so, so sorry. We're sending purrs to you and wish you peace in your heart, in due course.
ReplyDeleteNote from the human: I know you'll blame yourself and carry guilt. I still blame myself for Annie's passing 2+ years ago, for trusting the vet, for not doing...something...whatever was right. I'll forever feel I somehow failed her, that whatever I did was wrong or wasn't enough, etc.
But here's what I know: We do our best for our fur babies at the time, and we are not all-seeing, all-knowing. Sometimes Fate deals us a very cruel hand.
Please learn to be kind to your Self, and forgive your Self, because it was simply an accident. I don't think it will honour Luna's memory, for you to allow yourself to be consumed with guilt (as I did, and have had to learn to let go of...at least to a fair degree).
I'm probably not expressing myself well, and for that I apologize.
I just know that it won't do you any good to carry the anguish for the long term. Grieve as you must, in your own time and way, then please forgive yourself. (((Hugs)))
Kim
Thanks Kim... it's just so hard. If I just put the stupid bag directly in my work stuff last night instead of being lazy and putting it in the basket with my clothes to take downstairs later...she would be on my lap right now... so frustrating.
Deleteyou do not know that. If you had put it in your work stuff, maybe she would have gone in your work stuff. When kitties get something in their head it is very hard to get it out of it.
DeleteKim that was very very nice, you found the words I couldn't. Luna was lucky to have not only the best parents, but also all of us other humans who got to love her from afar.
DeleteWe are so sorry for your loss. We are keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteBrenda, Boots & Ozzie
Oh no! My heart is utterly broken for you. But please know that no matter what you do, and how much you try to protect us kitties, sometimes things just happen. And you did everything you could to save Luna's life once you realized what had happened. So PLEASE don't blame yourself. I am sending many purrs your and Zulu's way. Luna will be missed here too - I always loved seeing new blog posts and finding out what she was up to. Godspeed, my friend.
ReplyDeleteI know... I can't help thinking it though :( I guess it will just take a lot of time. Thank you
DeleteI am so sorry. Words cannot express how sorry I am. But know that she felt no pain and that's important. And you loved her and she knew that you loved her. And that's even more important. purrs
ReplyDeleteOMC our hearts are breaking for you. We know you feel like it's your fault but we know Luna knows it wasn't. You loved her and she knows that.
ReplyDelete(((Hugs))), purrs and prayers,
The Florida Furkids and Mom Sharon
Oh we are so sorry for your loss.
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prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrs and gentle tail wags,
Tiger Lily, Sushi and Marco Polo
Ohhhhhh, my heart is breaking for you. How awful for all of you.
ReplyDeleteCondolences, prayers, and purrrrrrsssss for you all ...
Grace & Company
We are so very sorry to hear about Luna. We know that this is very hard for you, feeling like you must be fault some how, but we do not believe you were. We are sure that Luna does not blame you. Certainly you did all you could--and clearly, considering how long she was at the vet before it became a problem, you found the issue quickly. Our thoughts to you and many purrs and headbumps-
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this newd, but please don't blame yourself. There's no way of anticipating that this would happen. We'll be purring for you and Zulu.
ReplyDelete--Jasper McKitten-Cat
I am so very sorry to hear about Luna. No matter how we lose our furchildren, we always wonder if we could have done more. Give yourself time to grieve, but try not to feel guilty. My thoughts are with you during this tough time.
ReplyDeleteMom Paula
I am so very sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteWith grief comes blame, no matter what happened or how things went. We always try to think of what we could have done or would have done that might have changed things. Hindsight isn't just 20/20 it is often mean and biased try to remember that.
Luna was loved and had a wonderful life. You were blessed to have one another.
Eric & Flynn let us know about sweet Luna. We're so very sorry.
ReplyDeleteSending condolences and love, from all of us at Purrchance To Dream.
We've also put up a post on The Cat Blogosphere.
So sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteOMC, we are so very sorry for your loss. Please know we are purring and praying for you, and sending love and thoughts of comfort. Fly free, sweet Luna.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for your loss. Please don't blame yourself. Luna loved you and you loved her. You gave her the best life you could and we are sure she loved every minute of her time with you.
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry to hear of Luna going to the Rainbow Bridge!! Lots of hugs and prayers for you!!
ReplyDelete((((Hugs)))))),
Your TX furiends,
This is just the saddest news. Our hearts are breaking for your whole family. You are all in our thoughts and purrs. RIP sweet Luna. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI am feeling so bad for you, I know the guilt. I can't believe what cats will eat even when they are fussy about their food.
ReplyDeleteMy Mistrie Rose went to the brdige on Monday. Emptiness, sadness, wondering if only I had.........I am so sorry!!! I am at a loss for words, know you are not alone.
Calicomom Toni
We are so sorry. But please don't blame yourself. Connie's right -- if a kittie decides he is going to grab a bag, or a pen, or tip over a glass, there is very little you can to do to stop them.
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry for your loss. You can only do your best for your kitties and...being kitties we get into things we shouldn't. Sending hugs and purrs.
ReplyDeleteoh my gosh. I'm so sorry, that's awful. hugs.
ReplyDeleteOur hearts ache on reading this. We know how you feel. Purrs and hugs from all of us!
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry to hear this terrible news and send sincere condolances...Beautiful Luna had a wonderful life and was loved by her family that cherished her=that is her story...She knows you always did your best for her and she will forever be your Angel now, along with sweet Angel Keiko...Love NEVER dies and Luna will be with you in your heart forever in that way...Wishing you peace and comfort as you deal with this tragic situation and know that everyone, especially lovely Luna, would want you to forgive yourself and know that you were a wonderful Mommy to your precious girl...Take care, sending you big hugs and love, our sweet friend...J, Calle, Halle, Sukki, Mommy Cat, Daddy Cat
ReplyDeleteSo very sad and sorry to hear this tragedy happened. We know you will be missing Luna and feeling guilt and pain ~ we are sending love and peace and comforting purrs. This could have happened to anyone, please don't blame yourselves. xxxxxx
ReplyDeleteHow so very heartbreaking! I read of your terrible loss on the CB and had to come and offer condolences. Whatever guilt you feel, you gave her some very happy years. And as has been said, this could have happened to any one of us and still could. xox
ReplyDeleteYour beautiful Luna and Zulu greeted us when we first came on the CB and we have thought of you often. There are just not enough words to express the shock and sorrow when something unexpected like this happens and it's no one's fault, although we know you'll be saying to yourself--if only, time and again as you grieve. Luna would not want you to feel sorrow at her passing. She's an angel now and knows she'll live on in your heart.
ReplyDelete(((Hugs)))
Julie, Tom, Tinker, and Anastasia
Please forgive yourself. This was a terrible accident but that is what is was - an accident. She knows you loved her dearly and will now be with you forever. I believe that when our time comes to pass it does - this was her time. If not this way then it would have happened another way. Nothing is random. She was not meant to be on our planet for longer. Sending love and light to you in your loss.
ReplyDeleteCats of wildcat woods
WE are so sorry that Luna went to the bridge. It is so hard to keep things out of reach of cats so you really shouldn't blame yourself. We sure send you lots of hugs and many purrs.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very very sorry. We are sending you healing purrs....and for Zulu too. We think Kim said it wonderfully. Mom knows what you are going through....but please know that Luna doesn't blame you - no one does. It was an accident. Not that it keeps your heart from breaking.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for your loss. As others have already said - it was a complete accident and you could not have predicted it. You loved Luna and she knew it. Time will heal but I understand the emptiness in the house and the spaces where she once say and lay and walked. Just know that you are not alone and you are in the thoughts and hearts of so many pet lovers today and in the weeks and months ahead. xx
ReplyDeleteWe are so so sorry to read about Luna. She was really beautiful. Please don't be too harsh on you. Accidents happen, and it was an accident.
ReplyDeleteWe send you lots of purrs and hugs.
That is so tragic! Charmee and I are terribly sorry for your loss of your beautiful girl. Hugs ...
ReplyDeleteJessica
I am so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful girl she was and angel she will be ...as others have said, this was a terrible accident and no one's fault. Be gentle with yourself ....run free, Luna
ReplyDeleteWe are very sorry to hear the sad news about Luna. All of us send our condolences, what a beautiful girl she was.
ReplyDeleteMindy
Moe
Cookie
Mike
We cried for your Luna today. We cried because we know you loved her completely as she loved you. We cried because life some times takes odd turns that simply don't make sense.We cried because we know that you blame yourself.Please don't.Be kind to yourself.Plant a flowering bush in Luna's memory to remind you of her precious life.You acted responsibly in the face of this tragedy.Be gentle with yourself.It was her time and we will never know why.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Sophie and the critters in the cottage xo
We came over to leave our condolences: Ann sent an email to tell us. We are so sorry for this terrible accident and loss of Luna.
ReplyDeleteI'm SO sorry for the sudden loss of your beautiful, beautiful girl. A sudden death is so hard to make sense of. Please give Zulu a kiss from me.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry to hear about Luna. We send you comforting purrs and headbutts.
ReplyDeleteI was sad to see this ad know you will be hurting so much ad also blaming yourself. Please try not to do that but focus on all the good things you did with your sweet girl. It was a tragic accident and your darling girl knew you loved and cherished her and would never knowingly do anything to hurt her. We send love, hugs and purrs. GJ and Carol xx
ReplyDeleteWe just heawd about bootiful Luna's howwibull accident. Please don't blame youwself. You cewtainlynevew meant fow something so dweadful to happen...sometimes things do ..mommi is sending pwayews and I'm sending healing smoochie kisses fow yoow bwoken heawt. Luna was loved and had a puwwfect life wif you and will be playing ovew the bwidge wif hew angels till she sees you again
ReplyDeleteLove
Asta and Mommi
Dear Luna's Peeps and Zulu
ReplyDeleteMom and I are so very very sorry to read about the loss of your baby girl.
We offer you hugs and purrs
Madi and Mom
We're so very sorry for your loss. : (
ReplyDeleteRun free, sweet Luna.
(((purrs & prayers)))
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ReplyDeleteWe're so sorry to hear about sweet Luna - we know you will be bound to blame yourself but
ReplyDeletebad things happen now ever careful we think we are but it was an accident. She had a happy life with you secure in the knowledge that you loved her. She will watch over you all from Rainbow Bridge and blow you sweet kisses.
Luv Hannah and Lucy xx xx
Oh no! Oh no! OH NO!! We are so, so, so, so, sooooo very sorry!! Mom is crying just thinking about your sweet Luna and how sad you must feel..and so empty and angry at yourself. We are sorry, but it does no good to keep kicking yourself... We are sending you lots of purrs, headbutts and tailwags. Luna is watching you and loving you from above...rest assured. Tiny, Ellwood, Ginger, Elioth and Chouchou of WeezDaBadCats & DaMeenDawgs
ReplyDeleteSo so so sooooooooooo sorry for your Luna Tina. You are not to blame! It was God who needed Luna for now. You will see her again...just wait and give Zulu tons of hugs and kisses! <3
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry to hear that Luna's passing. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
ReplyDeleteGod bless....Mona. Weenie & the Mommy, Sarah
Oh gosh. We are so sorry to read this. We got Ann's email and came right over. We are so sorry. We are at a loss as to what to say. It is such a terrible terrible tragedy. We send you many purrs and hugs on this awful day. Take care
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I'm so, so sorry to hear of your loss. No matter how hard we try, we never know everything and accidents happen. I know it's crushing when they do. Sending Love and Light from me and the HotMBC kitties.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful kitty too. Don't beat yourself up - you had no idea and we can't know everything. Hugs for her grieving family.
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry to hear about Luna. Such a tragedy. Sending you our thoughts on purrs.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sad to hear about this tragic twist of events. Please do not blame yourself for this. We kitties sometimes get into stuff we shouldnt and its pretty hard to stop us.
ReplyDeleteHugs and purrs...
sending purrs and prayers. our hearts are crying too.
ReplyDeletemomsbusy, kintaro, tt & buddy
It's such a tragedy, I can feel your heartache...I am so sorry!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about Luna. Having been in the same position myself, I know the feeling of guilt that you have. But try not to be too hard on yourself. Luna was just needed at the Bridge for a very special job that only she could do, and she answered the call. But she will continue to watch over you from there. And the memories you've built over time will always be safe within your heart.
ReplyDeleteWe're so very sorry to hear about this sad accident. We send love and comforting purrs.
ReplyDeleteMuch Love to you at this time as you grieve the loss of your girl.
ReplyDeleteMuch Love,
The Slimmer Purrsibs & Mama Mindy
We are so sad to hear about Luna. We know you are so terribly upset now, but you did your best after it happened. We are glad to hear Zulu is going to be okay. Hugs and purrs from our house.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry that Luna has gone to the Bridge. It was a terrible accident and I know you feel guilty and will for a while. Try to forgive yourself in time. Kitties get into the darnedest things and it's impossible to predict what they will fins fascinating today that they totally ignored yesterday. Hugs and purrs.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is breaking for you. I am so, so sorry to hear about Luna. May she rest in peace. I am glad to hear that your other little one will be ok. Sending hugs and prayers to you and your family,
ReplyDeleteJeanne with Chloe and LadyBug
Oh my, I am so sorry to hear that sweet Luna has gone to the bridge. My heart is heavy as I know how your hearts are breaking. Please don't beat up on yourself too badly. This was an accident. We know how your love your girls and took the best care of them. Sending prayers to you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your sweet kitty. I can't even imagine. I pray for comfort and peace for you to let go of how it happened and to enjoy your memories of her and pass all that love onto Zulu. _ Fur Mom
ReplyDeleteWe offer our deepest sympathies in your time of sorrow. We are sorry too that we are late to posting but Momma doesn't get online on the weekend. Keeping your family in our purrs and prayers.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry!
ReplyDeleteRIP Luna
I try to find the words to convince you that this is not your fault. All I can say is what others have said- it is not your fault. Kitties make mistake sometimes.
ReplyDeleteI know she would not have wanted to spend her time here, with anyone else. You are an awesome mommy.
We are purring and praying for your comfort.
Please take comfort that there was no pain and that there is a beautiful place for her to go and that she can be with Keiko. Please know that this is not your fault and that all there is, is love. Please take our purrs, prayers and thoughts with you in this sad time.
ReplyDeleteHarry, Dexter and Tipp
We just learned of Luna's passing. We are so sorry that this happened, please don't be hard on yourselves, sometimes we cats get into stuff we shouldn't. Luna will have many friends awaiting her at The Bridge. We send you much love and many rumbly purrs
ReplyDeleteFly free Luna sweetheart
Gerry, Mungo & The Ape xx
We are so sorry to hear of Luna's sudden passing. We understand how you feel, but you can never blame yourselves, as you can never tell what cats will become interested in. She will have lots of furriends at The Bridge...
ReplyDeleteFly Free Forever Luna
The Kool-kitty-krew
My heart is truly breaking for you with the sudden loss of your beautiful Luna. Sending gentle purrs, prayers and thoughts of love to you.
ReplyDeleteBe Well Sweet Luna